“It is strange how we hold on to the pieces of the past while we wait for our futures.” ― Ally Condie
I think an awful lot about the past. I know I’m not supposed to, but I do. So, I like to say it’s because my moon is in Cancer, and so, that’s the reason.
I have mixed feelings about nostalgia. On the one hand, it feels good to treasure certain things from yesteryear. When I think on people, places, times, events that brought certain meaning, I want to linger on those memories. The trouble is that often when I do, I can’t see rightly in the present. One friend often tells me, “You’re remembering me as I was. You need to get to know me as I am.” Okay. Guilty. But I tell you, it feels like if I turn away, let go of those moments, I am devaluing them, like I am forgetting them. That’s a heart thing. My head knows it ain’t so. Still…I catch myself in the past more often than I’d like.
On the other hand, too much nostalgia, too much looking behind takes me out of the present. And the present moment is what really counts. And the present moment is the seat of my personal power. It’s from this place that I call into being magic. There is nothing I can do about yesterday. And the truth of the matter is that there is not much I can do about tomorrow, except…stay focused in this now space, as my tomorrow is born out of my today.
Nothing is ever really lost. The memories of good friends and good times are always there, never more than a thought away. In a sense, they never really stopped happening. Every moment you ever treasured, every friend you ever valued is still there, separated from us only by time; the past is still happening and always will be. It’s only we who have moved on.” ― Simon R. Green
So, how to find the appropriate balance between hanging on and letting go? How do I honor those memories, affirm their importance in my heartspace, but truly accept that they belong to yesterday where it matters? When I find myself tripping too far down “Memory Lane,” I can allow myself to recognize and accept the moment, give it respect, then refocus and re-center in the present moment. Breathe. Make myself present in the present by acknowledging, “in this moment, I have everything I need–all the love, all the joy, all the peace.” I can turn within to that place of truth and knowledge that is mine, alone, for spiritual wisdom and comfort. I can acknowledge these moments of nostalgia, then remind myself until I really know that all those things I want to cling to, that I think I am missing, are really still with me, will be with me forever. In this way I can give them their rightful place without letting them take control of my today.
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