Choosing to Remember that Life is for Living

“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo.

“So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

Cacophony of outer chaos aside, this time has been a blessing for me in many ways. When I finally was able to pull my attention from the sounds and sights of a global emergency clamoring for my energy and attention, I realized that this was a moment ripe for growth for me. I saw that I needn’t give my focus and energy to the collective fear, anxiety, worry, desperation, depression or darkness playing out boldly all around me, but that I could choose something different.

I determined to focus on myself and keep my head out of the panic that swelled around me. I realized that I had the opportunity to understand what this moment meant for me, and how I might best utilize it. As I saw it, there was no use marching in lockstep with the collective sighs, cries, and screams of fear, as there was little I could do about that, or with it.

Rather, I turned my attention to how I might use the time to get to know myself more, how I might deepen my awareness of my spiritual nature, and expand in understanding the personal and universal possibilities for my growth and my life that this detour from normalcy and habitual living had given me.

“The darker the night, the brighter the stars,

The deeper the grief, the closer is God!”

― Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment

As I watched people lose their sense of self-control, inner authority and power, and their ability to assess things with a stable, reasoned mind, it was clear to me that that was not the way for me to go. What would it do but make me feel hopeless, useless, confused, crazy, and more afraid of the unknown? I anticipated this moment when I realized there was a line in the sand being drawn, and that people had begun positioning themselves on one or the other side of that line. Moreover, doing so meant that rather than finding reassurance, a level of calm in the midst of emergency, there could only be accusations, antipathies, and anger in place of solidarity, strength, and stability. Of what use was that to me?

It’s been a long almost-two years, but I have understood that I was meant for this moment.

“It is not despair, for despair is only for those who see the end beyond all doubt. We do not.”

― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

Rather than yield to a feeling of powerlessness, drown in hopelessness, and surrender responsibility for myself, for my choices, my thoughts, my actions, in hope of rescue by others, I acknowledged the truth I had been learning about who I am, about what I am capable of, and most importantly, my own divine awareness now accessible to be put into practice during this earth walk experience.

I could choose to see the world as possible, and not as lost.

I decided that I believed that everything is in divine order, and that I am an eternal spiritual being. I did not look at each prescient moment to fear the inevitable loss of this body, nor succumb to fear of the possibilities of dying. I chose to see this time as that great and inevitable unknown in which I could embrace the life I had in each moment with its attendant beauties, gifts, and gratitude. I realized the power to acknowledge (and believe) that I had been bequeathed the greatest gift of choice by the power of divine love that sent me, rather than, a life of limitation and less, by which to shrink from life.

It was a moment that I had to understand, I had to decide if I believed what I said I believed. And while I understand well that no one wants to die, we are charged with living life as vitally, determinedly, and confidently in each moment that we have breath, literally and figuratively.

“The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.”

― Mark Twain

We have drifted so far from ourselves from our understanding of ourselves as blessed beings on Mama Gaia living in resonance with the frequency of natural life which we came to experience, and instead, turned our attention and energy towards artificial living which diminishes that life in the name of ‘progress’.

I watched people I know panic, and I felt calmer because I know I am here for an experience of life that transcends this moment. We’ve been talked out of our peace by the insistence that we live less (by living in fear, and being lulled into mindlessness through our incessant focus on screens and living vicariously through them. But that’s another story for another time). To whom do we yield our faith and trust? Do we go along to get along, and further anchor fear of a pandemic planet? Or, do we understand the truth of who we are, what we are, and that there is a solution for every problem, (as Dr. Wayne Dyer said)? Do we keep our heads when all about us are losing theirs, in order to let calmer heads prevail? Or, do we give up that vital spark in service of squeezing a few more minutes out of those who promise us more time, by wanting to lock us down so we cannot breathe the breath of true freedom? Do we appreciate the life we have or look only towards that granted by artificial support systems, which in the end, cannot save us?

Only the Divine can deliver life to us. I say, I trust the Divine Love in me. I trust the Divine Life that IS. In the end, I drop this body and remember myself as part of eternal life. Meanwhile, here on the earth ranch, I live each day as if my last — with awareness, with vigor, with gratitude.

“These woods are lovely, dark and deep,

But I have promises to keep,

And miles to go before I sleep,

And miles to go before I sleep.”

― Robert Frost, Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening

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So, In This Moment…Now.

“It is time to step up. It is time to rise up and claim our power, our self-worth, to find our true inner strength and to reclaim it. Step into it. Use it. We have the unlimited strength within us to birth, to create, to bring to life our purest intentions. This is about rising up by ourselves and for ourselves. This is about finding our innate strength so we can heal, repair, nourish and reflect in whatever way we need to. Our worlds needs us. Our children need us. Our men need us. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.” ― Petra Poje – Keeper of The Eye

It’s heady, this time. And we find ourselves at a unique moment in time, facing choices that were never so precisely spelled out, as this one. There’s never been so much riding on a moment, never so much weight levied on human decisiveness and probability.

Uniquely poised to create a future we would want for ourselves and our children, the gauntlet has been dropped. “What will the humans do?” someone sings offstage. Doors open wide with Aquarian energy infusing the moment.  It beckons, “Try something new. Try something different. Did you know this is not all there is?  Come this way…”

This moment is big.

Now, if you’re squarely entrenched in 3-D reality, and so sure that life as we understand it is reality,  you may be hard-pressed to understand the gravity of this moment.  Even as you witness a reality that has produced for you an out-of-control-and-into-hysteria act designed to frighten you out of your wits and beg those who say they know better to do something, you must wonder if this is how this theater is going to end.

Dramatic, I know. But so is this moment, this time.

Where this moment is leading us, the door it is rolling up to, if we do nothing, is dramatic tragedy befitting Shakespeare.  But we do have a choice in all of this.  We can surrender to inevitable woe, or choose a different path. And what I have come to understand is that it is our initiative, our say-so, our decision that will impel us forward to collapse the box which houses this Truman Show, and opens the door to opportunity, the possibility that Aquarius assures us, we’ve never seen before.

Or, the same which will propel us into the once and future past, the new-old Dark Age.

In other words, nothing good, nothing new is going to happen, truly, until you choose. Until I choose. Until each of us chooses. And let us not forget that to not choose is to choose.

I don’t care which version of left or right psyops you are “be-leaving” or “leaving your own being” to accept as reality. If you do not know thySelf, ANY popular characters and narratives “out there” are suspect. Don’t you see? In the end, none of them lead to actual freedom. The only one that does is the journey to the Kingdom within. 
~Eileen Meyer

Many sit glued to the news which barrels out of their TVs,  lending a perspective which can only lead them to disempowerment, prison-living, and hopelessness in their tomorrows. It is information recycled for the 21st century and beyond, that begs to shape a reality designed to encourage them to come along, accept the promise of a wolf-in-sheep’s-clothing guarantee that they will be safe and protected, and that they can trust those promises. 

“We would never steer you wrong, ” they assure us, in neat soundbites and strong warnings of whatifs if we don’t comply.

And somewhere offstage the exclamation,  “My! What big teeth you have!” Little Red Riding Hood says to the wolf in Grandma’s clothing. 

But any vision-forward person can see the empty, hollow inside of that outer illusion, the prettily-packaged programmed confusion, false promises, and inevitable disappointment awaiting those who choose to remain disempowered.

Other ones sit seeing a perspective that comes from an up-close and personal eye on how they were short-changed by the system (and they were),  believing sincerely (but misguidedly) that freedom is coming in the form of a man or the cavalry,  because they believe in God and Jesus, and in truth, justice, and the American way.

And still others, await the sounds, sirens, and light beams from Star brothers, sisters, and others signaling the path forward, because as they understand it,  freedom will come in the guise of galactic flashing lights and chariots of fire in a promised and age-old mission to save the earthlings lost on this blue marble (and from themselves, too) and uncover our shared hidden history.

“Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.” 
― Eliot Peper,  Breach 

All right. There are points of view. But in all cases, there is waiting,  and in that space,  giving away the special power that humans hold to be a part of shaping our own futures, and to welcome in more enlightened and humane living,  over to some things, or some ones outside of ourselves.

God helps those who help themselves the proverb goes.  And so, as I see it, we are charged with understanding that nothing can happen without us. Nothing can happen outside of us. It is we who must grasp the power given to us from the Divine, to act on our own behalf and in our own name. And in the doing, and out of that action comes comes the assistance, comes the help, even the cavalry.  But it’s in that order.  First, WE. We must recognize, embrace and embody our own divine power, and rise to demand our sovereign right to be free.

We cannot afford to wait for outside forces of any kind to save us.

“We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.” 
Colin Beavan,  No Impact Man: The Adventures of a Guilty Liberal Who Attempts to Save the Planet and the Discoveries He Makes About Himself and Our Way of Life in the Process

It is up to us to grasp the power in this moment. It is up to us to snap out of the collective spell we have come to accept as meaning, as life and as purpose.  We cannot go quietly into a future life being designed for us with its attendant outcomes we never would imagine for ourselves.  But the key is to ascertain the significance of who we are as spiritual beings inhabiting fleshly embodiments, charged with making the most of it in this profound moment.  The key is hearing the clarion call of this very moment.

“Your tomorrow depends entirely on what you do today.”
― Ghandi

We’ve gotten too far away from our original knowledge and awareness. And true reality.  And if we keep in that direction, we will give up our very humanity, by acquiescing to those who bark the loudest, and threaten us with death. We are far along in this game but it is not too late.  If enough of us can come to understand the sobriety of this moment, the potentiality in it, and the weight of responsibility and power we truly have, we can redirect this drama, and write a different ending. We can move toward a world that works for everyone.

We must see WE. We must BE we. And may WE be free. 

So, in the doing, let us choose.  NOW.  But first. WE have to save ourselves. 

© 2021. Egyirba M. High. [Althea Grace]. All Rights Reserved.

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